ups and downs

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So... I haven't posted in a few days.  It's been a struggle.  We have some good, really good moments.  And then, we have some really low moments.  I have to remember that these kids may have a traumatic past and are testing my limits.  I received this article at just the right time...

https://www.focusonthefamily.com/pro-life/when-your-adopted-child-pushes-you-away/

Also, I've made the very difficult decision to put my dog down.  It is time but difficult nonetheless.  

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